In My Mind

In My Mind

When the cruelty in this world
comes too close
its pain too immense to hold
I close my eyes
to try and turn off the tap
that streams all feeling

In my mind
I’m at a bakery with the sunlight
shining through winding city streets
built of brick painted white

This is my local pastry shop
The cashier knows me by name
I am on the porch
chickadees float around me like bubbles
they’re eyeing bread with beautiful and greedy glances

In my mind
Their wings blur like any sacred memory does
over time
hovering around
dipping in and out patiently
waiting for a chance to peck a piece of bread
I’m delighted at this
they’re trusting an intuition that whispers in a calm hush
Shouldn’t we be doing the same?

In my mind
The light coming from the street
becomes too strong
too bright and orange
it’s engulfing the birds
the porch
the pastry shop and me

This is what happens
the unfolding of an
uncomfortably calm shift
we are sucked in

I’m unable to keep my mind at bay
The light overtakes me

I surrender
Let go the light calls
a calm hush

Photo: I took this photo of my one of my family friend’s son Skylar while we were hiking. Skylar and I were playing while we stopped for a snack, it’s then I saw the light coming through the leaves and asked him to stand still.